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My Reflection past and present Today, the 18th of march, Wednesday. I'm going to share my very own reflection of my band life over these years. MY SECONDARY 1-2 BAND LIFE OK, lets start with my life in band. Since sec 1, I joined band mainly 2 reasons. One, I wanted sports(badminton) but there isn't any favourable to me. Two, I love music so i decided a change in lifestyle(: soundss cool rite? heh. Its just simply two reasons why I'm here. However, So much has changed over the years. Lets begin with my 1st year as a junior band member. I was quite enthusiastic in the 1st place. Unfortunately, I landed in the INFAMOUS Tuba section): when i wanted to enter the Saxophone section.. I wanted to play saxophone cos I scored quite high for tenor and baritone saxophone during the auditions..however i didn't manage to get it. Instrumentation already destroyed my future ambitions in band. I started to lose my enthusiasm in band I started to skip practices.(like seriously) I went to play soccer and do other stuffs until Zat came around to look for those idiotic band members. I started to mock the conductors i hated.(e.g MR G, MR H) I started to like feel band is wasting my life away. While on the other hand, i see people enjoying it in fact..zz people got what they wanted, I didn't. I was shy so i kept quiet.. then came the complaints from teachers that i skipped band. My parents were called. I was been interrogated by teachers. I sooooo wanted to quit band.. OK so maybe, I should be more serious. Furthermore, there was a major change in instructors. Zat took over so i guess things would be better than before. So i started to make another change back to my musical life. I began to return to do my self-practices. I began to attend band. However, I sucked practically at everything. ( cos i hated playing the tuba) At 1st, my standard as a junior was quite good. Cos i had music background and so on. but later i realised i wasn't that good. Jin yong my sec4 senior then, called me down for extra practices. LIKE SERIOUSLY. Like exactly how i treat my current junior tangsen, minus the scolding part of cos. and this extra practices is ONLY ME! thats when i started to dislike jinyong. at end of sec1, i was rewarded the SL position of the Tuba section. So i guess, Jinyong's intention was very clear after all. With Great Powers, Come Great Responsibility. I Had a Responsibility. SECONDARY 3 BAND LIFE life that purely sucked to the CORE Mainly because, Zat gave me the council post as the Band Major of Music. I had so much conflicts, throughout the whole year. It was because I was simple-minded and immature then. One such example, was speech day 2008. I was put I/C of the fanfare band that day. However i lied and i went out to play. I neglected my duties. That was where all the problems start to flow in from. Its all my fault. My grades fell greatly. I was at a loss in relationships with other people. I started to feel the pressure as a BMM. I thought it was simple, just music. However, it was not. I had taken the post for granted. I quarrelled with people. I neglected my responsibilities. I was down and out. I was a complete failure. TOTALLY.at a loss of what to do. I Lost most of my friends. Not physically lost but emotionally, my friends began to drift away. I too, start to drift away. BUT, that was when realize who my true friends are. Those people around me, who were there with me when i was sad, when i was really totally at a loss of what to do. At these critical moments in time, they advised, guided and saw me through the countless hardships i had. I then realize that all this while, I have a purpose, a motive in all this things. I have to learn to let go of the past and focus on the present and the future I realize I have to mature. And I'm really thankful for now who I am. Thankful for those who were beside me in my times of difficulties. You've seen me through the sadness of my entire Band life. And those who were maybe initially people i detest, but now who I'm alright with, or people who turned against me, or people who let me down. I do not really care they are living or not. Even if they are dead it ain't my business. SECONDARY 4 - Future I've made another step into the last and final year of my band life in TWE. I havent gone through much but right now. I feel like a grandfather, telling his children about his experiences, sharing with them his feelings/thoughts/opinions then. Some of you might know these things, it may sound stupid, but it's all about learning from your mistakes and all. Of course, I am going to see my juniors through their band life. I am going to remain in band. Cos i know that my sole purpose in band is not just to realize my ambitions as a musician or conductor. But also, everyone around me(: I wish to see them grow up. Guided. Not having the similar life i had gone through in these 4yrs in TWE I have not done much YET for the band, and its members. I really would do. However, a message to TWE members: I believe.. Embrace the Music only when you want to NOT when you are asked to. A Strong Band is a United Band. A Weak Band is a Divided Band No matter how musical individual members are. Great Minds think alike, Great Bands too(: The end
I'll play for you.
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