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You're Not Alone. That Night. I remember You tossed your bet on him away. but I'm sure that feeling would stay. You are down and out. You just wanna scream your pain out loud. But you're alone, all alone. You are scared. You are afraid to face this world but i would say.. You're not alone You're not alone not alone .. oooh Believe me and you'll see. That I love you Tomorrow will be a better day for you You're never alone cos' I'm always with you. Looking at your lovely face my girl i really want you to be safe. Forgetting the past cos' you know it won't last Stop now! let it all go and stand up to let everyone know that you want things to be right you wanna fight and I'm going with you till the end cos' You're not alone You're not alone not alone .. oooh Believe me and you'll see. That I love you Tomorrow will be a better day for you You're never alone cos' I'm always with you. I know you're sick and tired of this endless pain I know you wanna die and leave this hateful world but can you see that I'm sitting next to you Please hang in there this last moment for me You're not alone You're not alone not alone ..oooh Believe me and you'll see. That I love you Tomorrow will be a better day for you Don't live in the past as it won't do Hand in hand we'll see this through.. ..enjoy..
I'll play for you.
Today is such a great day. Out of 5hrs of lesson, only 2hrs got teacher!! HAHA great! Have been slacking a lot lately.yea as usual. So i think i should start studying soon yup. I think i have to be more firm myself. Cannot be pushed around. I think I'm too easy-going, I think I'm doing things that suit others only.not myself. Perhaps another change again? Once again, ...a twist in my story...
I'll play for you.
Everything now i don't really care. I'm getting shitty results..my English fail, Maths fail. pissed. and Some things just got a little messy lately. although its somehow within my grasp, I can't seem to prevent it any further. Its just too complicated you see. hais. If it were last time, everything so carefree. No awkwardness. No hard feelings. How good is that? I think I care too much. Perhaps I shldn't care. But no, I can't leave some of my frens aside for others. I really want to spend my remaining time with everyone possible, close ones. but i seriously don't have enough of it for everyone. I may have did something wrong to you, I'm here to say sorry. I don't have any ill-intentions. Please Forgive Me. Now the most important things in my life now, my future in music my close friends. Music is my life. It's part of me. So are you. and everyone else around. Please don't feel sad, if you are one of them. Coz I don't want to lose you. like how hard i cling on to my Music. not letting go.. ever.
I'll play for you.
My Reflection past and present Today, the 18th of march, Wednesday. I'm going to share my very own reflection of my band life over these years. MY SECONDARY 1-2 BAND LIFE OK, lets start with my life in band. Since sec 1, I joined band mainly 2 reasons. One, I wanted sports(badminton) but there isn't any favourable to me. Two, I love music so i decided a change in lifestyle(: soundss cool rite? heh. Its just simply two reasons why I'm here. However, So much has changed over the years. Lets begin with my 1st year as a junior band member. I was quite enthusiastic in the 1st place. Unfortunately, I landed in the INFAMOUS Tuba section): when i wanted to enter the Saxophone section.. I wanted to play saxophone cos I scored quite high for tenor and baritone saxophone during the auditions..however i didn't manage to get it. Instrumentation already destroyed my future ambitions in band. I started to lose my enthusiasm in band I started to skip practices.(like seriously) I went to play soccer and do other stuffs until Zat came around to look for those idiotic band members. I started to mock the conductors i hated.(e.g MR G, MR H) I started to like feel band is wasting my life away. While on the other hand, i see people enjoying it in fact..zz people got what they wanted, I didn't. I was shy so i kept quiet.. then came the complaints from teachers that i skipped band. My parents were called. I was been interrogated by teachers. I sooooo wanted to quit band.. OK so maybe, I should be more serious. Furthermore, there was a major change in instructors. Zat took over so i guess things would be better than before. So i started to make another change back to my musical life. I began to return to do my self-practices. I began to attend band. However, I sucked practically at everything. ( cos i hated playing the tuba) At 1st, my standard as a junior was quite good. Cos i had music background and so on. but later i realised i wasn't that good. Jin yong my sec4 senior then, called me down for extra practices. LIKE SERIOUSLY. Like exactly how i treat my current junior tangsen, minus the scolding part of cos. and this extra practices is ONLY ME! thats when i started to dislike jinyong. at end of sec1, i was rewarded the SL position of the Tuba section. So i guess, Jinyong's intention was very clear after all. With Great Powers, Come Great Responsibility. I Had a Responsibility. SECONDARY 3 BAND LIFE life that purely sucked to the CORE Mainly because, Zat gave me the council post as the Band Major of Music. I had so much conflicts, throughout the whole year. It was because I was simple-minded and immature then. One such example, was speech day 2008. I was put I/C of the fanfare band that day. However i lied and i went out to play. I neglected my duties. That was where all the problems start to flow in from. Its all my fault. My grades fell greatly. I was at a loss in relationships with other people. I started to feel the pressure as a BMM. I thought it was simple, just music. However, it was not. I had taken the post for granted. I quarrelled with people. I neglected my responsibilities. I was down and out. I was a complete failure. TOTALLY.at a loss of what to do. I Lost most of my friends. Not physically lost but emotionally, my friends began to drift away. I too, start to drift away. BUT, that was when realize who my true friends are. Those people around me, who were there with me when i was sad, when i was really totally at a loss of what to do. At these critical moments in time, they advised, guided and saw me through the countless hardships i had. I then realize that all this while, I have a purpose, a motive in all this things. I have to learn to let go of the past and focus on the present and the future I realize I have to mature. And I'm really thankful for now who I am. Thankful for those who were beside me in my times of difficulties. You've seen me through the sadness of my entire Band life. And those who were maybe initially people i detest, but now who I'm alright with, or people who turned against me, or people who let me down. I do not really care they are living or not. Even if they are dead it ain't my business. SECONDARY 4 - Future I've made another step into the last and final year of my band life in TWE. I havent gone through much but right now. I feel like a grandfather, telling his children about his experiences, sharing with them his feelings/thoughts/opinions then. Some of you might know these things, it may sound stupid, but it's all about learning from your mistakes and all. Of course, I am going to see my juniors through their band life. I am going to remain in band. Cos i know that my sole purpose in band is not just to realize my ambitions as a musician or conductor. But also, everyone around me(: I wish to see them grow up. Guided. Not having the similar life i had gone through in these 4yrs in TWE I have not done much YET for the band, and its members. I really would do. However, a message to TWE members: I believe.. Embrace the Music only when you want to NOT when you are asked to. A Strong Band is a United Band. A Weak Band is a Divided Band No matter how musical individual members are. Great Minds think alike, Great Bands too(: The end
I'll play for you.
Time flies past very fast. Time waits for no man. Now, my time is about to end I'm on the verge of leaving everything behind. Hopefully, everything. Though some can, I just cannot leave out all the rest.
I'll play for you.
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The Maestro
Qingle a.k.a PlainBlueSkyes
La Memoirs
→ August 2008 Au revoir
Xinrui Your Words
Enchantment
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