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I'm totally at a loss of what to do. There don't seem to be any other way.. I also don't know why am I so serious in this... I am! I know I am, but why don't others understand my situation?? Well, I don't blame you for this. I realize I can't always put the blame on others. Sometimes I gotta' Do things my own way, Sometimes it's just me and my flaws. not others? I really do not know. I don't want to hurt others but i guess i have to. I don't want to insult my own peers my age, even though i don't want that, I still have to. It's hurtful as you can see... Its just either, I criticize, or I keep it within me.. bearing the burden. I have a responsibility but I don't seem to live up to carry it.. Do I have still have a choice?A solution?
I'll play for you.
Well, change my skin after sometime ya. Found is rather boring, and people say my add is too long. Here is the changed blog, a changed me, a changed life? Hmmm would be adding a tagboard tomorrow or something, the website got problem. Lolx. and sure, I will more contacts ya? haha no time no time now!~ anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAYTON. (need me to play a songXD) though i don't think you would be looking at this. HAHA
I'll play for you.
Another yet. I feel. I'm so going to step down soon.yet i feel i have not accomplish much as a band major itself. Why ?? I often ask myself? Probably bcos i did too much self-learning myself or through the help of the best ppl around me? I remembered my past was shitty. I had conflicts. many. some I can remember vividly. Some i can't, although the idea is there.. But all brought me up where i'm standing now. thanks to all who were there. however, all this. maybe it all took too much time. by now. i would like to accomplish something in band.as in do my part in improving the music in band or somehthing? totally cliche..i just simply want band members to be responsible musicians, and willing to learn. MOst importantly, Know their main purpose in band. It doesn't have to be like..Uh, I must not FAIL SELF PRAC!!..i must listen to my SL kinda thing. And I know got dam screwed up ppl, i dunt have to say names la..they say all this to me, JUST FOR SHOW ONLY. come'on la, I was there once what the fuck? You guys practically said that cse you guys want to protect your image ya? screw u! if u not interested then F-off la knn.. i believe people live for a reason la, So if u'd prefer to live the life of pretense? then You would never realise your true meaning of life..(ok i sound alot like a christian here). ok i say no use uh? i tell u la..give you the picture. You guys come strolling down happily ah? goo down to the band room, and start to practice ya? HAHAHA of course that isnt a problem la. but do you remember what you say before that? well i dno? but most prly u said this: UHHHH....Band sux.. mst go back self prac sia.. .. uh how smart sia. pretty bigshot assholes tink they can live their way thru band like that? dream on! definately saying this, i can't stop anything. And for those people who really slog their guts out thanks. alot. you guys have ur dignity and have committed urself, you will find your reason why you are here all along. Unfortunately la, i have to say that most of this crap comes from the sec4s. the seniors. or i could say USELESS la. mayb one or 2 are not. i know im one of them. as u can see from my previous post, i couldn't even take care of one junior? As a band major, what more the band then? Isn't that utter useless??! I really feel that useless. Although I don't blame my conductor for that comment, I just think its totally true. People have to face up to the facts anyway, so why not just face the music?? some people till now still dnt accept this fact la.. some people just think life is for fun, yet some of them are fucking christians(no offence).some people don't take anything seriously. Well, i think you deserve the title 'useless' la.. As seniors, we gotta set an example for everyone including your peers. CAn't you see if everyone work together in perfect harmony, won't everything be like smooth-going? there would not be any problem. Aiya..I know. Peopl would be out there saying that i'm an ass? or something? But do u tink i give a dam to ur useless comments, if there are any? well sorry to say no. AT ALL. If everyone has the heart to do it, The HEART!! nothing is impossible. You dont have to see it as forcing upon urself, learn to accept it, and you would know the joy in it. AND you don't have to COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN YOUR WHOLE BLOODY LIFE COS U NOT HAPPY WITH THE CONDITIONS, GIVE PEOPLE SO MUCH PROBLEM...uh thats another story. signing off:
symphony no. 22
I'll play for you.
sick and tired of everything. Hope it all be gone soon...can't stand it. I scolded the hell out of tangsen on wednesday morning. Its just like after cny and im like scolding?? early in the morning Honestly, Ive never scolded anyone in band before. That morning was officially my 1st. I did not blogged it on wednesday itself, cos i was tinking whether i should ever post this or not.. well, i guess i should since i'm here already.. Before i go on, let me tell u this. I'm going to go vulgar to the extreme..so be warned.Ready? well, imagine this. You have someone under you, in work or any aspect. He doesn't have any problem most of the time, just one thing. FORGETFULLNESS!!! that one word, has brought alot of godam problems for me.. My junior in band. He is hardworking, just that he is so busy until he cannot come down for bloody self prac??! cheebye.. like dat oso cannot..Then zat have to like kaobei alot.. He has been interrogated several times..but still yet to change.. Last friday, he comitted a flaw..he forget to punch out.. I then decided that..i should do something..about this fucked up business. then on the early hours of wednesday morning, i cultivated a very firece aura around me.(maybe some of you dont see it) Along the way, he still have the guts, the godam guts to tell me that he cannot come at my expected time. Absurd!..but i still let him..i wasnt in the mood to pick on this kinda thing. Surprisingly, HE CAME ON TIME. HAH..how 'pleasant'..i asked him in to get his tuba, his file and his ass kicking to the big windows area..then so on so on ..I NAG NAG NAG then on to SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD>>> fuck la..then i slam table slam the cupboard. demanding. strict. vicious. i never felt or have an experience with such a climax before. Some band members asked me why was i scolding my junior. Everyone thinks his bloody innocent, please la fuck. this is not your fucking business and you think my junior is bloody innocent??! omg. if thats the case i wld have took the plunge and die.. My junior is like this.. slow. weak. Lousy. Incompetitive. troublesome. loves to idle. IRRESPONSIBLE. FORGETFULL!!!!..loves to play comp-maple?? wtf..get a life la..a fucking asshole who have three activities to look out every week, namely debating, chinese reading club(oh pls), band. Band is the main one and he yet alw skip a little here and there. But of cos, if he was a much better player? or he has other section members to cover in for him? NOOOO there is no other way!! THERE IS NO OTHER WAY MY FRIEND!! DO YOU KNW THE SEVERITY OF THE GODAM SITUATION>>>argh.. you are the only fucking junior left in the Tuba section..You want to let it fall or not. Its really up to you ya? just that if u really want it to go down..I will not rest k? i will not.. I really wanted to curse and swear at you godam it cse the whole point of scolding you is not only i really want you to freaking hell change your cheebye attitude?? and also, your weakness has exposed my flaw in not teaching you bloody well..You are my only jr and what the fuck you want?? YOu think you bigshot la? tink we have to pamper you cos you areso called our only 'lifeline'?? LET ME TELL YOU BLOODY HELL NO!! NOO NOO NOO if you tink that way i tell u YOu ARE so bloody WRONG YOu fucker. So in simple terms if you are to bloody blur? You weak, I'm even weaker? IM WEAKER!! prly the weakest. Im so called useless. USELESS BLOODY HELL??? DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE GROUP YOU IN THE MAJORITY AS A USELESS PERSON>??? lIke TOTALLY 100% USELESS..?? I hope anyone who reads this get my godam point.. anyway. this wont be the final post abt such a thing. there will sure be more..Im very sure. Although i know. why not prevent it? its all cos. ones ways are not under my control, Its all up to the person whether he wants to change or not..thats my point.. signing off:
symphony no. 22
I'll play for you.
YUP as usual. When school starts, starts to blog about teachers and school. HAHA. yea, 1st day last fri was fine. A little intro here and there. Got Mrs Ng, my ex-co form last yr. And lets all say bye bye mrs VERMA hahaaa.. no Offence. cse now mrs verma is teaching the class next door, 3/6. I'm sorry jerald and Siti. ok here are the following tchers Forms: Mrs Ng :) Mdm Lim ( waa better watch my attire lols!) English: Mdm sharifah :) heard she is goood..gd lucks to my english!hehe MTL: Mdm Liu -.- shit la not again!!!@#$%^&* Emaths: Mrs Debbie Wong :/ not sure of her....rather boring on 1st lesson. Physics: Mr Mubarak :) Nice man, Nice haircut!! woohoo (just kiddin) Chem: Mrs Teo :) Funny tcher, same as my last yr chem tcher. but she will br leaving for maternity leave!! ahhh wish my chem gd luck then. SS/Ehist: Mrs Ng :)) my form tcher, yea, no verma!! Pure Lit: Mr Tan :)) yeaaaa we can hear more stories. POA: Mdm Yeo :))) pro tcher..yea. Thats just a summary of the teachers, let me go into details. English, taught by Mdm Sharifah, a used-to-be band tcher i/c. I heard from the seniors that her teaching is quite good, and SHE IS FUNNY MAN HAHA. She said that everyone must speak the universal language ENGLISH, then as long we are 5min in her range, we must speak ENGLISH or we GG!! walau..Best of all, we are her only english class!!! THAT MEANS, She can focus all on US for Os!! YESSSSS. Then Chinese, omg! liu ying again....dang! kuku..=.= waaa she pro ah! Today 1st thing she did was tell us the motto for this year's chinese syllabus. The Os are in mid year, then she said, WE ARE GONNA READ MORE WRITE MORE PRACTICE MORE, mainly on essays and letter writing....zzzz NOOO...i must score well for chinese!:)) but as usual, she has not changed the least bit!! haha she wan us do essay on the 1st day of mtl lesson, then everyone never bring their books, then she sent us all down to book shop to buy it. However, the bookshop was freaking crowded and it took us half an hour to do so. By the time we came back, it was 20min b4 recess. And guess what, SHE WAS US TO FINISH THE COMPO AND HAND UP !!!! WALAU BLOODY HELLL!!! dang..no choice la, i finished anw. AT least mdm sharifah told us a day b4 that tday have ENGLISH DIAGNOSTIC test, and its only the 3rd day of sch!! omg.. ermm, Maths...hmmm Debbie Wong ok la...just that she a little boring...haha. theres homework but i have not done...lols..Luckily i finish my hols hmwk alr..heheh!! Ehist and SS nth much to say, haven started much on lesson as Mrs Ng had alot admin work to do.. Ahh physics..MR MUbarak. he looks fierce but actually a very good teacher..and a very good sense of humour. rofl. he at 1st like very stern then suddenly became nice...haha just as long everyone plses him i guess.. all the best for physics!! then chem, mrs teo, same as last yr. but now, she is pregnant haha. SHE is so funny sia. HAHA. must be her pregnancy la ehem*...she keep saying the wrong stuff like say: copper and iron(ll) and iron(lll) the solution colour, its suppose to be blue, dirty green and reddish brown. then she say white..which is for other type of solutions..she paused and then ask us: ''ehhhh, wht did I say ah??hahaha!" then the class went: " walau!!" then she say: " hahaha wdv! just testing you only( its just an obvious excuse la haah) Pure Lit, Mr KC tan, wa tell u man, he is one of my fav tchers man. He come in dnid intro. straight talk about Os. But if you dno him, haha, you wld tink that he is a boring tcher, but HELLNO!! HE so fun, very good at diverting topics, from Os, talked about his sch days, his cca and his stories. But he's stories very interesting lol..(not as sick as mr eng la fyi). Lazy write, I'd rather say haha. Lastly, POA, Mdm Yeo. Yet another band tcher used-to-be. She is the best man, cse she is one of the tchers with 1st class honours in her forte, ACCOUNTS. My poa got hope aldy,(better then ms soh and mr tan kah siong hahaha) AHHH , so shiok, now the tchers are more balanced compared to last yr's . Last yr the SChool was totally biased to my class due to our ever constant results...woohoo??(all borderline la lols) NOw to work hard for SYF and MY pIano grd 8 exam. Once this are over, TIME FOR Os! I aldy stress for Os aldy sia...can't wait for it to go...:)) signing off: symphony no. 21
I'll play for you.
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